2003年09月13日(土) ■

French Restaurant

I went a french restaurant with him. He.. ah, yeah, I mentioned before. It was fun.. but some part..hummmm, I got a strange feeling. And I have to say something. He is not 37 years old. I guess he is much older, about 45. No,,, I can't. He is too old for me. But he said, it's all up to me about our relationship. If I want to keep dating, we can do. If I don't want, it's over. Oh, no. He is rich. It is one thing bother me. I'm a bitch now. After all, I have to find someone who I can love. ANYWAY, let me forget it a while. Now, I'm watching "West wings". The guy, named Sam is cute. And CJ is very cool. She is smart, intelligent, has sence of humor. Ok, I'm doing some preview for my english class tomorrow and going to bed.

2003年09月12日(金) ■

Manhattan　Rhapsody

I saw this title of movie on BS11 tonight. It was very sweet story. I loved it. This is the story about two professers in COLONBIA Uni, US. They got married without sex. But they are good company until the woman notice that she's really into him. Even pure love needs sex, I think. No wonder, right? To love someone means having desire physically and mentally, doesn't it? And you can forgive everything about him or her. But you get angry easily with him or her because you love the one. Unfortunately, I've never have a such desire. Where is my someone? Ex-ex BF loved me sooooooo much but I couldn't forgive him everything. Then, ex BF cheated me all the time so I left him. Sometimes people say that I'll never fall in love with somebody, because I love myself so much and my idealds are fantasy actually. I don't get it!!! Why? I need somebody just like everybody do. What is the different? I tried to date some guys but they didn't hit it off. Is it my fault? hummmmmm, good night.