I found out that he went to my friend house at one nite.
He did not tell me about it.
I was so shocked when I heard that from my friend.
She said neither of them didn't do anything but just talked.
I believed in my friend but not him.

Why didn't he tell me that? If there was nothing, why not????
I just can't believe in him anymore....
Like he can't, I can't too.

I know we are " friends" but i wanna know that he met AND went to MY friend's apt.
If it's not my friend, it is a different story.

I don't know what he is thinking.
Two hours ago, I left a message on his cell and he never called me back.
I sent a text of course he never replied to me.

I just don't see the point.
He just wanna fuck me? No. In that case, he won't go out with me.
He just wanna fuck around or show his ego???
How childish!

I have no clue what's in his mind.

I had a good conversation yesterday, and had dinner.
I thought we are going well.
But obviously not.

he just plays me around.
He fucking makes me crazy!
I'm going nuts!!!!!!!!!!!

The thing is that this kinda thing happens every day.
It bothers me alot.
I wanna take my private time to think about myself not him.
I know he wants to too.
But we just fuck each other and kinda hurt each other all the time.
As I said before, it's so vicious circle.

Why not staying calm in one place?
why not just concentrate on what u've gotta do?
why do u wanna fuck ur life up??

I talked with my two friends tonite and both said he is not worth it.
I guess so. only if I can get my mind off from me.
I can't control my emotion though i can think rationally.

that's why I hate thinking about guys.
it's so wasting of my time.

If there is one guy who likes me alot and I like him too, it will be perfect. I need this simple thing.
Like each other. Take care of each other. Care about each other.

What the fuck wrong with NYers???
Why the hell are so many jerks in ny??

Oh man.... I shouldn't get involved with him...

If he fucks around, I will.
Though i din't tell him( of course) I slept with another guy.
and I dated with another guy.
I don't see any possibilities between us.
so i'll just say "NEXT!!!"